Fuck You Too.

I am desperately lonely.

Don’t get me wrong – I have the day to day connection of my partners and my kiddo and my beloved pets.

But I am lonely for the connection of friends and family face to face. For a hug or a hand hold of the people outside my covid bubble. For interactions and talking and game idea shopping about ideas and writing and trying to make our emotional/food organization/government/ecology better and and I am just tired of feeling alone and sad and and and I realize that my feelings are so small and inconsequential in the face of WW3 starting to happen

But you see, I have been expecting this to happen my whole tween/teen life and here it is and I still have feelings about it so I guess I will just do the same and bury those feelings and be OK about it all, I guess OK and just suck it up and say that it’s fine when it isn’t, it has not been for some YEARS but that’s OK because in the end we are all gonna go in flash of nuclear fire.

So, anyway. Wanna join a Discord/Zoom where we can at least see each other and chat?

  • am in a bad place tonight – sorry.


While I am super glad that things are opening up for my more out there folk, I’m not quite there yet.
But I still want to interact with you all.

Would you like to participate in a shared story?

But not just any story. A story of supernatural hijinx during the pandemic.

Rules: two sentences only. Must have happened during the last year. No politics. Just spooky. Anything over 2 sentences can be ignored.

I’ll go first:

The cat skittered to a scrambling stop and then peered cautiously into a corner of the room. The smell of sulfur wafted to your nostrils.

What the fuck do I know

My PC character binder has DND 2nd Ed, DND 5th Ed, Marvel superheroes, Firefly, Call of Cthulhu, Exalted by White Wolf, Star Wars WEG, and a few others. It is not exhaustive of all the characters I have created, nor the systems I have played in.

This is not inclusive of my NPC and BBEG character binders either. For evil GM purposes, moohaha.

Every single one of the characters in the PC binder, the NPC binder, and the BBEG binder all have comprehensive backstories.

This is not intended as a gamer flex, but just as an example of how some people put together characters.
Including the ones that they use for their day-to-day interactions.
Because I sure s*** do it.

I am neurodivergent. I suffer from PTSD, anxiety, and depression. The latter is probably a comorbidity of my anxiety and PTSD.
I can generally fake being well, upbeat, and invested. It does not take away from my outstanding abilities at the things I am excellent at. It does take away from my ability to do things on a day-to-day basis.