I’m sitting in my high tech office — with a stupid, tiny little moth fluttering around me. Its alighted on my cameras, microphones, set tops, monitors, my face….grrr. I’m not sure why this irritates me so but, its like suddenly I’m a cat. I can’t see it fluttering about without I don’t try to catch the little bastard.
*flails ineffectually as it flits past again*

snarl

It could also be that I am deep in the throes of PMS. EVERYthing is upsetting me. Last night, D was teasing me about my laundry skills* and I was near to sobbing because of it*. Really. Being teased about my domestic skills almost sending me into a crying fit. Isn’t there a pill or something to make this stupid shit go away? I despise being an emotional wreck once a month because of my hormones. Truthfully, Im not usually this bad, but for the past two months I’ve been a PMSy twit. The only difference is that I am on the Depro shot. I think that I am disinclined to do so again.

Of course, there is also the fact that D’s under a lot of pressure due to work right now. Its telling on him – and is therefore telling on me as well. I can’t be there to hold him or tell him everything is going to be ok either, as he is in Florida. What I can do is text him, phone him, IM him. None of these are acceptable substitutes for wrapping my arms around him and saying that everything is going to be OK; and even if it isn’t, we can weather it together.

* – I have amazing laundry fu for sorting, washing and drying clothing. It sort of breaks down after that, as I apparently have a mental block on folding, hanging our putting away of clothes. There are baskets and piles of clean clothes littering my room.

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The Epitome of the WTFuckness

You wanna know what a nurse and his GF argue about at 1 in the morning?

Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : you’ll never guess what I came across in my readings…
Mare : what’s that ?
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : the article is called “Responding to primary brain tumor”
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : and I quote….
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : people of any age can develop a primary brain tumor
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : The clinical manifestations of a brain tumor cover a wide range, from headache to hemiparesis.
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : General signs and symptoms – headache, seizures, nausea, vomiting, and cognitive changes – are the most common initial manifestations…
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : Headache is a prominent early symptom in half of all patients with brain tumors.
Mare : i’ve had no seizures. And I am pretty sure my cognitive abilities are much as they’ve always been. Although I could be wrong on that last one.
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : The headache is typically intermittent, moderate to severe, worse in the morning, and associated with nausea or vomiting.
Mare : Are you telling me all this to try to frighten me?
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : Fatigue, a common general symptom, can result from both the disorder and treatment.
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : nope…just thought it was interesting reading…
Mare : izzat so?
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : yup….
Mare : and you wanted to share this with me, because?
Hunka Hunka Burning Nurse : just thought you might be interested in what I was reading….
Mare : riiiiiiiiiiiiiiigt

We then went on to our nightly phone call and continued the same discussion. *head shake* I don’t think he’s right. On the other hand, I don’t know that he is wrong either. The root cause of these discussions are the headaches that I have been having for the past couple of months. I think its stress and muscle tension. Possibly even some mis-alignment of my neck vertebra. He thinks that there might be a neurological cause. Back and forth, we have gone over this. However, I am leaning towards getting it checked out.