A long weekend pursuing goals. And we’re not talking little pansy goals, either. No, no. We’re talking life goals. Family goals. Spiritual goals. Stuff that keeps most sane people awake at night. Stuff that keeps the crazies spinning in place.

J and I are going to pursue college now. We’ve both reached a place in our life where we realize the daily grind of 8 to 5, Monday thru Friday jobs aren’t what we want. We have some ideas – mainly those of becoming teachers (history and math, respectively). We’ve worked in technical, computer type jobs for the last four – five years. We’re done. Completely done.

That being said – the big goal is for J and I to attain our degrees and become teachers. At that point we will choose where we want to live and then move there.

hmm…goals.

fill out the FAFSA
going to take the TASP/SAT before December.
figure out a school schedule that works with us
both of us are going to take part time jobs that work w/our part time jobs
the Girlie is not going to go to daycare anymore
we’re going to change our eating habits too
meat only once a week or so
organic only
lots of water
no more coffee/soda/tea/juice only occasionally
we’re going to start an exercise program
we’ll start with 30 minute walks every day
and yoga 3x’s a week (fifteen minutes a time)
we’re going to change the house up
convert the garage
setup the gardens
strip out the carpets
fix the fireplace

Those are starting goals – things we feel are doable. We’ll upgrade, or add more as we go on. We are so tired of stagnating.

I sat down last night and made a list of things I want accomplished by this time next year. I started off by trying to make them “reasonable” but soon gave that up. What’s the point of making a wish list if you have to have structure?
I felt much better and fairly accomplished having done that. Just recently, I’ve been in this funk. Not really sure what brought it on. Oh, I have some ideas but nothing solid. Either way though, I am sick of being blue.
However – making the list seemed to help quite a bit. So I narrowed that list down to a goal list. Things that I wanted done in a year or so. It’s a big list. Nothing on it exclusive from the others. In fact, most of it flows together.
Today I am going to take that list and try to sort out the steps to achieve that goal. Right now they seem so huge and far away. I am giong to try to make them smaller — make them in to baby steps.
Not going to look at the big picture and freak. Instead, going to look at a corner of it and go from there.

J, the Girlie and I were headed off to work and school, respectively. I was driving. I was in a lane that was quickly turning into an exit only. I looked ahead and it was completley unfinished. All rock, dirt and broken concrete. I tried to brake but couldn’t – the brakes had gone out. It was liking pushing against air. We went over one rise and suddenly we were upside down, doing some mad Mtn. Dew commercial car roll-over. We skidded the last few feet on the roof of the car.

And then we were in either an insurance claims office or a car rental place. They were evidently celebrating something as they had a *huge* buffet table out. It was piled high with cheeseburgers and something that was shaped like Cheese-Poufs – but was colored (and tasted like, my dreaming self knew) Fruit Loops. J, the Girlie and I kept eyeing the buffet table wondering if we could have any of it. And then J got to talking to one of the agents there. He described the wreck in detail. The guy seemed skeptical until J mentioned the lack of brakes. Mechanical failure! The agent and several of his friends decided to go out the site of the accident. They wanted us to come along. I was nervous but agreed to go.
And then I woke up.